Reacting to pressure - Words of Wisdom !

The restless I. The guilt of not obeying myself, and yielding to whatever is demanded of, is there any other reason to feel disgusted about?

Thought for the day - Losing self-confidence on account of an external factor, means it has eaten you by itself. But why was it allowed to, in the first place? So, see, some questions dont have an answer.

My food for thought - What is the difference between living and being alive?

Unfulfilled wants, unattended needs - Wisdom bits

Depriving of 'that', which is a need, creates individuals who are dependant on the society, unable to be their best or even themselves. Some people feel so great about depriving people of what they need. Not sure why!

Not aiding people to get what they need, is as good as depriving. I believe that we should help people rise upto their needs. It is sad to find that the need is often for love and affection, that which seems to have become the costliet. Walking into social service sector, is a great eye opener, but it commands courage and emotional strength to be able to deliver the best they deserve.

Morning music !

I was so tempted to listen to this number by Backstreet boys "So let me show you the shape of my heart".

Stronger of the duo, Bose & Gandhi - A Zombie's introspection !

Exercises of the mind never seem to stop. Absolutely tired me, with water gushing out of my eyes as I struggle to take this beast into control of sleep. They are not saline tears, but the result of the 7 sleepless nights which ended yesterday, and the void brain that has been depleting over the last 8 weeks of hard work. Unable to look into the monitor, yawning and rubbing eyes like kids with morning blues, it feels great to know I am not drunk, yet feels like my body is enslaved to white rum in blood. What melancholy this brings, and I don't want to miss the opportunity to forget the world alike, and become the poet. That poet who rarely existed after March'07 for all reasons good to believe.
In no order, I recollect Victor Hugo's words - "People do not lack strength, they lack will !" and Mr.M.K.Gandhi quoting, "If your heart acquires strength, you will be able to remove blemishes from others without thinking evil of them".
What Irony, I was thinking about my favorite leader SC Bose which triggered all this here. The fact that Gandhi(ji) was a reason to make him appear a failure in history, while Gandhi(ji) reaped all the fruits of "British hatred" against Bose, always hurt me. The question that drive this exchange is, "who was stronger ?". Both indeed were. Tolerance and courage, are two sides of the same coin named strength, akin to the concept of "the victim and the player". Some one's concept which has taken deep roots into me. One can very simply derive this from the words "Karta" and "Kaaran" from Bhagavatam, than following this wild-west concept. I will not debate much about that yet. Tolerance is a virtue, for, someone said to me, that, being a victim is the easiest to do. So true ! According to me, what differentiates tolerance and the victim spirit, is the vision and the end objective.
Going back to Gandhi(ji) and Bose, both men carried an impulse, the end goal was same. Bose's impulse faded for lack of sympathy of people. It is indeed a smart move for Gandhi(ji), to follow ahimsa, and non-violence. But the vision and the picture which drive this impulse, have to be made clear to people, to win the sympathy. Which is what Gandhi(ji) did. Both men had the same impulse, both opted to die for the Nation, both needed followers. But people also chose, to follow to their convenience. Gandhi(ji) chose death, with more options (Pain or life or death or humility), while Bose would always land up into 2 choices (Life or death). People were only clear about the choices available to them beyond life and death. Selfishness pays off ! But the biggest proof of similarity in these two men, is Gandhi(ji)'s slogan "Karo ya Maro", which came from the former, the ideal reflection of the latter's state of mind. If this was truly interpreted and some tolerance was showered on people who chose to follow Gandhi(ji), but do things differently, I would not have felt that Gandhi(ji) digressed from obvious points of speech. He did not fight for his fellow men blindly, but he fought for his ideologies and dreams about his fellow men. Often feels like "My way or highway". Exhibiting tolerance and the ability to see people without blemishes, would have been clear to me, if I read Veer Bhagat Singh and not Shaheed Bhagat Singh in history. It would have also meant INA as security at Dandi March and Jallian wala bagh ! The difference between these two men, is the way they handled things. One was a complicated man like the "offer subject to terms and conditions", while the other was a plain offer. Customer centrist played there as well.
Dhananjay told this to me, "Certain good things need marketing" in a different context though. But I realised the fact that SC Bose needed it too. I love both these men, for they succeeded in what they wanted to do, one was a catalyst aiding Gandhi, with the hatred & fear he instilled in the British, who ran to the non-violent mass. Both I feel, acted like Dominique and Roark in of fountain head. Each neither able to hate the other, nor able to admit the fact that they want the same things, done differently ! Opposition was support they best offered to each other ! The answer to the question of "stronger who ?", lies in the fact that one still gave away the place in history, for the other to bear the torch, without any complaints or confrontations.
When I say Bose, I am so close to him, the uncommonly common man, and am not forced to say Boseji, but when I say Gandhi, I am forced to see either the Mahatma or Ji behind it ! Such a frail government we have, who is so unjust to the leader, who gave us the Army, so vital to our nation and the only reason we still are an independent nation, and not a bunch of colonies ! Both deserve their due respects, but I don't want to distance myself from Bose. Like Keats, Darwin and Einstein, Bose will be with me !

Mon Chere Amie !!

Think about this - "The solution to all problems is just the birth of a new one". Call it an opportunity !

Brain quote - Are we all in pursuit of drawing greater lines against our greatest lines, just to make ourselves look better ?
 

Fossil is the first non-titan, non-hmt brand I am wearing, it is a gift from Kadups. Despite the fact that I don't like gifts, he sent me one. To be frank, I felt annoyed first, but felt cared later on. It did feel happy, but gifts and favours feel too heavy. I only want to give and see people smiling.

Now I have to become rational that others can think of giving to me as well !

To be frank, a greeting or just a pen would have done the same effect ! I just realised how ruthless I can be with Amar and Gokul. I never hesitate to flick anything or ask for a favour without bothering to return it.

Am a selfish brat with them. After all, they are the best I have ! I didn't even bother to thank Kadups, that increases the propensity to include him in the list. Shameless in deed ??

And here I am bragging about my friends :)

How much I show off my blackberry and the watch to folks, is just amazing. Another master piece is the broken wall clock, designed and handmade by Sat. It hangs in my hall to make our house seem a little old enough. But thats what I love about it, I show it off to every visitor who has a question about why it is there amidst the perfect & human things, and then I explain beamingly, and show off Sat's paintings :)

People now see me wearing a watch, and ask me "Oh you too started wearing one?"

The real reaason behind not wearing one, is the loss of 4 to my habit of removing my watch just anywhere and most importantly, forget it to my convenience. May be my wrists are so very delicate to bear a watch ;).

But everytime I look at my watch for the time, I say, its my friend's gift, and, everytime I have a black berry, people know Amar :)

My life is all about my friends, and the pride I take in them.
For, they make me so strong and bold.

Then here I am, daring to do just about anything,
to live upto my integrity and standing for the right.

The chaos that work has done to me, for reasons so obvious and those away from the blog is immense.

 

Missing Brad, the brother brat whom I could speak just about anything !

 

The last dance on the farewell party reminded me something that I could only do it with him :)

 

My perfect Michael Jackson partner :) Thanks to George to pulled me off the couch, atleast 5 times to break my own vows of not being bad to my back. Truly Mon chere Amie !

 

God blessed me with so many friends, who just let me be myself !

 

Now, may God bless them with happiness countless forever !!

Laze et Craze !!

Manchester United, Chelsea, Liverpool and Arsenal teams in the drawing room !!

No one to switch over to TV serials either :)

Doing nothing may be stressful too !!

I want to retire in another 6 months :P

Watched Vineet Nayar on TV, see this is how the idiot box can fill your life. My manager must be thinking that I am off to some mischief. Corporate life is getting a little sluggish and always accompanies boredome with it !

CRY - Right to Food; and BSNL in my life !!!

Finally on internet !! After 9 complaints at 1500, and over 20 calls to the Div Engineer, here I am successfully back to the talking world. My efforts of getting things done from one place went futile :(

While I am still recovering from the painful life, checklists don't seem to be diminishing, but it all seems to be moving !

Brain quote - That which is done has nothing to be undone, but what is right is not right to the wrong and the wrong is not wrong always !

Responsibility - I enrolled as a volunteer at CRY, who impressed me greatly post their change in outlook from Relief to Rights in their CRY. We are currently working on mobilizing and aiding people to ensure that the anganwadis scheme run by the Govt are being run properly. But the Govt is trying to privatise this effort by letting third parties into it. Please read the actual NEWS that appeared in HINDU about this. Though I am not physically mobile, I want to help this movement as much as possible by collecting people's views which will later be used as part of RTI applications / survey results.

I have been listening to mixed views. PLEASE comment on the same !!

My thoughts - When the Govt has RTI, the people still have a hold, the RTI cannot be enforced on III Parties, its just another loop hole / idea to still be corrupted. One more layer added to CNF (Corrupted Network Force)
1. May be it is also possible that a few genuine bodies may do better than the Govt. !
2. It really may not be possible for the Govt. to manage w/o proper network / infrastructure / funds.
3. It may be just fine to limit ourselves to ensure that the Govt enforces adequate rules / makes provision for direct supervision under RTI to get things going. Publishing these list of centers to interested parties periodically, may be mandated as well.

More Life - Words of Wisdom !!

Not sure if anyone had a chance to watch this debate. I missed it out !

Sanjeev Dada wrote this to me - "A person who knows that 'this' is not it, knows that he/she does not know what it is, and when one does not know what it is, then what is it that dies? ... I liked reading your blog. "

Dada - I'll counter it this way .. If change were constant, then that which is changing, is change itself and nothing else, then why change oneself for a change which changes .. constantly ?

Random questions and their wisdom !!

What must be the minimum hours of sleep required for a person whose metabolic rate is pretty high ? Am not sure !!

Tilu - Thank you so much for the information provided, you really eased me out of an incomplete thought in my mind. I will take it up early next week, when I start on my much awaited vacation of 30 days to get the Feb 20 deadline rolling !

Someone conveyed a message in unsaid words, "Having cheated, I feel proud, for, its my birth right".

Of late, I found lack of core values in many people. Deriding genuine integrity, and never feel responsible for any act, some people never seem to have a conscience !

Lest, should people be fooled or allowed to be taken for a ride !

Recon

Project Manager endrale ParamasAvam thaane - (It isn't I :P)

Thoughts:

Doing a job of a calibre way too below yours' is a .. curse ?? or reminder to act ??

Vadivelu Vaaththi - 

For people who don't know this guy, check this -> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vadivelu and http://www.vidilife.com/videos_vadivelu (Side-effect of TV programmes telecasting comedy tracks continuously ??!!)

For once, I really pity people who are unable to enjoy his timing, the slang and the beauty of Tamil as an ultimate language for comedy timing, against the common complaint from our beloved Northies that "Speaking in Tamil, sounds harsh to them, like a scolding".

Words of wisdom on a bright morning !!

Another bright morning. Excited about the rest of the year for the days to come, that there are smaller work weeks inspiringly, but will this time beget quality in me is questionable. A poet is looking to flee in search of harmony with nature, where words would spring from the inspired rocks, like waters from where a river springs. There is enough of everything, seeking difference in altitude and experience, at work, in words, time and people. But change is within, needless to say. Static energy and I, the driver is missing, the wheels and the vehicle too (lol) !!

Abstraction is me and clarity is undoubtedly disturbing to those unsearching bliss and myth !

Love is so very the content of poetry that lives in romanticism.

The debatable strata of the mind is, "time is fixed". Thought, experice and feeling, the mind, body and soul of life, all race for the same time. Who gets to kill time, of course is the body. Where should one live is so amazing to excavate, and resolve, but the answer unfortunately is, experiences just are. Thinking about the feeling, feeling about thoughts and actions, both are invaluable, for they have no bounds of time and they live forever. But the fact remains that one loses experiences, while thoughts and feelings quickly creep around your arms binding you to be answerable to time that was given to you.

In a world, where I think and feel, I evade the experiences unknown. I realise to be held responsible for rehearsing and undoing what could have better got a thousand chances of re-take !!

Not to brood over much, the conclusion says, enjoy what you feel, for it is experience, question what you are unable to enjoy, for it is the power of thoughts, live aside people to unravel what others experience even as you have no clue about it, thats the power to feel !!

While Serah Caleb is still emerging out of my mind into the paper, I am evolving just to be !!